Wednesday, January 16, 2008

The Midweek Rant

I AM PISSED.

I HATE dieting.
I hate being fat.
I hate my body.
I hate that I can't eat whatever I damn well please whenever I damn well please.
I hate carbs
I hate fat.
I hate calories of any and all kind.

Moreover - why is the universe consipiring against me??

Okay that is obviously overdramatic but it sure feels that way.

Right now...as I type this...there are freaking cookies and chocolate in the breakroom mocking my very existence.

WTF?

I can not say with any certainty that I'm not going to go in there and eat some of it. Yeah, sure I'm motivated and sure I don't want to fail and sure I am making progress (finally got on the scale this morning and I'm down about 7lbs in 15 days which is great) but stiiiiilllllllllllllllllll...

I want cookie.

Dammit.

Oof.

2 comments:

Catherine said...

Read all of your postings and you are trying very hard to lose the weight! I wanted to wish you the best and ask you not to drive yourself crazy. To me, weight and dieting is a mind game and you can drive yourself nuts worrying about it. :)

Take care!! :)

Bharat said...

don't push yourself too hard!! take it a day at a time.. and you have the power to throw those cookies out... you just don't want to... go on.. do it.. get it over with... throw everything out...